Friday, May 13, 2005

cla aka clara.

soft toy you say ar dil? haha. i'll consider! hahas. oh. recently has been like shit for me. that explains why this super talkative and noisy girl disappeared for like ages?! haha. bet you all missed my posts lar! hahas. so im back. esp with constant naggings from dearest dil hengs.

stressed and still am stressed. nth is what i want it to be yet there isnt anything i can do about it. sounds something like manling's sense of helplessness. but i know it is for the best lar. just that at times when you think about it, you feel that you are not treated like a normal person ya.. why dun others get the same treatment as me? why just me?

oh well. and the ostro thing in class? i cant help it. it's not like i purposely do it to upset or hurt her, but den you juz cant help it. that explains why some ppl click and some ppl dun! why cant you understand? i'll try. smile and be nice. i am nice. just that i cant bring myself to be nicer. i guess it's some sort of an accumulation thing and i dun wan to pass off as being fake to her. what's the point. so.. slowly i guess.. hopefully everything fades with time.

confused ya? haha. great. i did such a wonderful job of being vague and everything but that's pretty much all going on in my complicated and pathetic life. complicated and pathetic because many things are happening at the same time. things you do not have control over and things which affect you but you cant do much about it. sounds pretty much the same matter? think again. think on my side of view. hahas. im mad. what's new?

backdrop. finally it's done. VNR hasnt been such a waste of time after all. and internal rifes? haha. settled without any confrontation. awww. being good audience, i would like to see more happenings. but den, for the sake of everyone, better not. it's best to be out of the picture yea. misunderstandings cleared by a simple word. trust. or should i say, naive? whatever it is, they will choose what is best for them. not up to outsiders like us to comment. unless someone says sth that affects me directly which is untrue and den they will get hell from me.

dil, the swing is wide enough. wanna swing tog? forward, and backward, backward and forward... stop pushing me. i wanna stop and get off the swing.

wishing;
5/13/2005 10:52:00 PM

*dilys and clara
*deecla
*19
*Blah blah blah...

Stars of my life
::manling::
::shuyi::
::sharon::
::eUg::
::sompong::
::bimbotic ler!::
::yings!::
::pui kor::
::lanbo::
::nana!::
::mad!::
::bong!::
::wuuu hui!::
::siyin!::
::diL aka dee::
::tsai hsiu::

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Searching for a glimmer of hope

To My friends who are... engaged
~the true measure of compatibility is not the years spent together
but how good you are for each other~

To My friends who are... still holding on
A sad thing about life is when you meet someone in life and fall in love
only to find out in the end that it was never meant to be
and you have wasted years on someone who wasnt worth it.
If he isnt worth it now
he's not going to be worth it a year or 10 years from now
Let go~

To My friends who are... heartbroken
~Heartbreak last as long as you want
and cut as deep as you allow them to go
The challenge is not how to survive heartbreak
but to learn from them